Monday, 20 December 2010

Arrogant. Narcissistic. Self-important. Self-absorbed. It all comes down to...

Egos. I am so truly sick of people and their egos. From never being wrong and blaming others, to thinking you’re the prettiest most amazing person; when honestly, I’ve seen much better. I don’t mind people being confident and having courage in one’s self. It’s something I admire in people. I just can’t stand people who think they truly have no flaws, and because of this neglect all the people around them because they’re too self-centred to notice anyone else; apart from the few more ‘popular’ people. We mustn’t upset or ignore them. No.  

Though I whine about egotistical people. I think I’m more annoyed with myself. For not having the courage or ego to put them in their place. Like, when the 5th time their popular friends leave them alone comes around. I can just say ‘sorry to hear that. Well, good bye’. Why do I always feel bad for them and comfort them? Why do I delude myself with the idea that people can change. Even though the 4 other times they don’t? Maybe it’s my upbringing. Or the fact I believe in treating people how you’d like to be treated. One will never know until years of therapy. Though, I wouldn’t really want to know that I’m a push over because of some weird stuff from my childhood. That would be worse than not knowing. 

With the new year approaching, and a new outlet of blogging. Next time I’m just not letting them back in my life. 2011 will be a year of change for me. Most definitely. All the little things I should have changed and started this year are on the edge and I can’t keep them there much longer. I have no choice in the matter. Life’s changing in 2011 and I have no say. I’ll just pray it’ll be for the best, and kick out some trash along the way.

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

First posts are always the hardest.

Whenever I start using a new site, I always feel a bit stupid; as I get confused easily. Usually I get so flustered I stop using the site and delete my account. Though I hope I don’t get too delete-happy with this blog and keep posting. I want this account just for myself. This isn’t for anyone in my day to day real life. This will be my own little place. Maybe along the way I’ll make a new friend or two. Maybe in 20 years time, after this all done and over; I’ll log back onto this site and reminisce.
At least my first post is done and dusted.It may not be a bold statement, or a life changing event like I'd prefer. Though I think this will do. :)